Saturday was Josh’s birthday-happy birthday Josh! It was awesome that we were able to Skype (along with Ken and Kristina) for a minute before he had to go back to working on his papers for class. Josh has been one of my very closest friends for years now, we have so many great memories, and as I sat down to write today’s Musical Monday post, I remembered one from not very long ago.
Josh and I were driving to meet up for Sushi with our friends Angel and Andy, and he was talking about how he’d downloaded the (then) new Cher album and how one song in particular had jumped out at him and reminded him of me. He then played me this:
My Favorite Scars by Cher
He told me how he admired me for always being able to bounce back from the heartache and the heartbreak and move on with my life. He reminded me about how good I was at trying again, even after all of the hurt.
Unfortunately, I don’t feel like that person anymore, and I’m not sure how to be. I feel pretty damaged by too many repeated blows in the past and I’m unsure how to bounce back this time. It’s getting more and more difficult as I get older. Who knows? Maybe one day it will just happen.
For now, I have to work on figuring out how to put myself back out there, even if I’m still feeling a little bit scarred. Deleting all of my dating profiles makes this a little more difficult, but that was entirely the point. I need to go out and meet people in the real world, and stop being so afraid.
What is Musical Mondays?
What are you listening to this week?