This was supposed to be posted last week, but there was a mishap… So I’m reposting properly today. 🙂
I started seeing someone. I’m not going to tell you much about him specifically yet, but I do want to say that it’s been fun and exciting so far.
When we first started this, whatever this is, I had the idea that it was going to be purely physical. I told myself I was taking a break from my hunt for a meaningful relationship and I was going to just have fun and “do it like a dude.” Of course some close friends responded with “I’ll believe it when I see it” and my therapist flat out said “Not sure how this is going to work…” and advised me to “Be careful, but stay open to possibilities.” So that’s what I decided. Whatever it was going to be I was going in with no expectations, but I would still keep an open mind. I wasn’t hoping for anything by any means, but I didn’t want to so close myself off to it that if the possibility of something more came up I instantly rejected it. That’s no fun either.
Since this all started before my trip to Canada, he and I texted each other 24/7 while I was gone, and something about all that talking and making ourselves get to know each other before our planned physical encounter made a world of difference. We both agreed we’d do what I’d been saying I wanted and skip right to the comfortable part instead of going through the awkward first date scenario, so our first date started with Tequila shots, homemade Lasagna (I cooked!), and a movie at my place. Our first date started at 8PM Friday night and ended at noon on Sunday… It turns out that we enjoy each other’s company, and he’s already expressed he’d like to be around for a good long while. And me? Well, in spite of my initial intentions, I find myself being drawn in-and I’d sure like to keep him around for a while.
So I’m going forward. Still with no expectations, an open mind, and perhaps just a touch of hope and excitement. Who knows what will happen? It could be something that lasts, or it could just be a fun Summer affair. Life is a funny thing, and either way I’m going to enjoy it.
