Today is a much better day than yesterday. Being Wednesday, it automatically starts off better because it means the week is half over, and the weekend is getting closer by the second. The drama has been minimal today, and the ache and frustration I was feeling yesterday seems to have been mostly resolved. It is possible I overreacted a bit, I'll admit to that, and for you readers I should clarify that he and I had never agreed to exclusivity in any sort. He told me right from the beginning ... Read the Post
Spoken Resolutions
The Calm is Starting to Slip
I woke up surprisingly calm this morning, and with the way I left my conscious state last night, that was a surprise to me. Mostly, I feel fine, other than my eyes are extra puffy from all the crying I did last night, and my stomach did not sit well with five shots of Canadian Host in it overnight. There really hasn't been an occasion on which I've downed liquor because I wasn't feeling emotionally well; I'm really not much of a drinker. However, last night I knew I ... Read the Post
The Musician is an illusion. Nothing more. I feel like such a fool for letting myself be happy. For letting myself buy into the lies. I feel so deceived. I hate myself for believing it. I hate myself for always being this person. I hate that I couldn't just have one happy holiday season, I was so happy and so excited and now it's all crashing down. I have to end it. I will not be the girl that lets herself get fooled over and over again. I will not be ... Read the Post
http://mysocalledchaos.com/2009/12/musician-is-illusion.html
Maturity & Compliments
How can it go from compliments to being yelled at in the middle of the night and still be OK? I'll tell you-It's because The Musician is pretty much the most mature guy I've dated. Ever. We had a bit of an "issue" the other night, and that was the first time I realized the level of maturity we're working with, and I was really impressed. The exact details of the incident are a little fuzzy to me, but the gist of it is that he felt I was being pushy (which apparently-According to close ... Read the Post
Dear So & So: I Think I Like You
Dear FWB, I really like you. In fact, on some level, I think I kind of love you. No, this does not mean that I am asking for (or even wanting) a relationship. It just means I feel you are someone in my life worth loving, even if it is not reciprocated. Honestly, I don't really expect or need anything more right now, I'm just enjoying where we are. The Universe doesn't give you the people you want; it gives you the people you NEED... To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to ... Read the Post
RTT: Self-Realizations & Secrets
It's Tuesday, and boy do I have a lot of random thoughts in my head this week. However, I can't discuss all of them in this venue just yet, so a lot of it is going to be said using Post Secrets (secrets that belong to other people, but I relate to strongly) mixed in with other thoughts... I recently had a new friend say to me "I'm impressed that you know who you are at 23 years old. You seem so secure and sure of yourself." The first response my mind formulated was to quickly deny it, as I ... Read the Post
